Grief is dark and powerful and rears its ugly head with no warning. It isn't something to be afraid of, however. I embrace grief as a process, as a part of life. It hurts when it has its grips on you but will eventually release. I wish there was more honesty about grief as it doesn't have to be this horrible shame-causing experience. I have found grief to be freeing and life-changing; a good reason for self-care. There is life after grief. 🖤 On a side note, I am really
I can't remember a time when there wasn't pain or the ominous threat of pain. Some of my earliest memories are of holding my legs, under my knees, and sobbing in pain at only three-years old. I don't remember the doctors appointments when they told my mom it was growing pains and she called bullshit. I do remember years of crying and wondering why I had to have pain but no one else my age had these same pains in their arms and legs. My parents and I knew they weren't grow
Until you've experienced it, you have no idea. Vertigo may be just a movie title to you or your worst nightmare. It's unlike being dizzy yet it is often synonymous with that word. When I first started experiencing vertigo around the age of 15 it was the most frightening experience of my life and I had already been through plenty of surgeries and undiagnosed health scares before. This time, I actually thought I might die. Vertigo isn't generally something that happens to
As a young adult, I thought I was going to be dead by twenty-five. It didn't make me sad to think about, it's just something I had always assumed. This is especially odd since all of my grandparents lived long lives and one of my grandmothers even lived to almost 102 years old. She would be 106 years old now. Her sister just turned 102! So why did I assume I would live a short life? My guess is that years of chronic illness had convinced me that my luck would run out bef
Trapped inside with a floating shell around me
All I feel is pounding in my brain
Wrap me tight in the love that somehow found me
It's the only thing that calms me when I wake Ringing in my ear with a weight upon my chest.
It takes everything that's in me just to get dressed.
Then a gentle voice breaks me of the thoughts that overtake me on this sunny day
He wants to explore the world
And I'm his one and only girl
The only one who has his little heart today #Migraine #Chronic
The shimmering light is like an ocean on my bed
I feel like I'm floating while I'm drowning in my head My eyes are finally open and the light doesn't hurt any more The spinning has subsided and my feet can touch the floor
This is beauty for a girl like me
A momentary calm in this ever-changing sea
A time for no reflection
Only time for pure release
To revel in the silence
To soak in all the peace I can hear the waves lapping
As the fan creates a breeze
Keeping my head still
2019 is fast approaching and I'm checking off a resolution a few days early. New Year, New Change in Gear 2018 was a doozy. I went into the year knowing it wouldn't be easy but I had no idea the challenges that lay ahead. You name it, I dealt with it. There is plenty of time to get into the nitty gritty but I would like to start by welcoming you to my blog. It's a new year, I've got new change in gear.
I swear, I can see clear now the clouds disappeared.
-Wyclef Jean, The